Sometimes people observe that they don’t get The Divine Desire Power Rush that they would hope for.
They haven’t really Unlocked The Moment, but have merely paid lip service to it in their head, perhaps trying (in vain) to trick their own Conscience and Consciousness so that they can have the thing they want from a place of attachment, without really giving up the attachment to it. (Or as Alan Watts might say, after people realise they need to stop ‘Trying to Control’, “You try ‘not trying’ – trying to get it that way!”)
You haven’t created a genuine freedom of Consciousness around the thing, and so your (lack of) power is still coming from your ‘Trying to Control’ Ego mind and Fear Consciousness.
Kissing Consciousness calls this ‘The Futile Paradox Hack’, because you’re trying to ‘hack’ – cheat – The Paradox of Love Consciousness by pretending that you’re not attached to something (trying to ‘not try’). It’s a common phenomenon and futile because Fear Consciousness is Fear Consciousness, no matter what we pretend.
If you realise you’ve done this, then you need to (read: might choose to) release the attachment and face The Elusive Emotion. Then you have a real feeling to feel.